The Devastation of a Cancer Diagnosis
A Cancer Diagnosis is devastating, mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually and financially! This is why I had to ask my Children, Family, Friends, Co-Workers, Church and Community to pray for me. These are the life events that I have encountered with this diagnosis.
I received my diagnosis of Breast Cancer on July 21, 2015 at 6:28 PM. I was traveling to Charlotte, NC to conduct a Technology Development Seminar for the company, where I am employed. It would have been an in office consultation but, as a busy professional, I travel for work and I don’t like to miss or delay any of my assignments. I was anticipating the call earlier that morning, but the doctor had several surgeries that day and could not tell me the results until he returned to his office to review the pathology report.
“Michelle, I regret to inform you, the diagnosis is Breast Cancer.”
I know the timing was strange, if you think about it, this call was after office hours. The doctor asked me the HIPPA questions first, to ensure he was speaking to the correct patient. I confirmed that I was the patient he was contacting. Then he said the words I never expected to hear, “Michelle, I regret to inform you, the diagnosis is Breast Cancer.” I was stunned, so much so that I did not even remember to ask him, what type of Cancer or the grade. I calmly thanked him for contacting me, especially since it was after office hours.
I thought about the diagnosis over and over for what seemed an eternity, but it was only fifteen minutes. I called my spouse and reported the findings. I had to say, the doctor said, I have Breast Cancer. I was so stunned, I did not have any tears to cry. I drove to the airport and picked up my work colleague and we traveled to the hotel, we checked in. I tried to rest in an effort to meet the demands of the training schedule the next day, but sleep was not easy for me that night.
how could I have Breast Cancer?
My mind was in a constant state of, how could I have Breast Cancer? Their was not any history of Breast Cancer in my family among women, I’m the first. Wow, yes I’m the first Woman in my family to have Breast Cancer! This was surprising for me because I was in relatively good health, and I don’t have Hypertension/High Blood Pressure, Diabetes or Heart Disease. How could Cancer just pop up and devastate my life?!!